Bittersweet

Today was an experience.  Today I got an education regarding our judicial system.  Today was bittersweet.

My attorney was late today, so we (Dena was with me) had our hearing last. I listened to court cases for hours.  It was sad.  I realized I would never want to be an attorney or a judge.  I listened to case upon case get decided by a technicality.  It appears to me to be a game. The person who wins their case usually wins because their attorney catches a simple little glitch.  I listened today to people who didn't get houses built when they were supposed to.  I heard people argue about who paid whom and why. Some guy couldn't get his toilet fixed and didn't want to pay his rent.  The stories go on and on.

I think my hearing was similar.  We won. But I can't do backflips for another 10 days.  The guy that brought the lawsuit against me can appeal for the next 10 days.  He is just arrogant enough that there is a possibility that he may appeal. All we can do is wait.  But all in all, today was somewhat bittersweet.  I dont know if this guy is simply stupid or trying to get something for nothing.  I don't know if he believes his lies or if he is not telling the truth to try and get ahead.  When all is said and done, I would rather not have the conflict (even though I enjoy mentally sparring with someone with good money on the line). I would rather live in peace and harmony. 

Tonight I will lay my head on my pillow and fall asleep with no regrets.  I told the truth. I did my best.  I was able to convey my side of the story well enough that the judge ruled in our favor.  Truth be told, ultimately I can only be responsible for me and my actions.  Win or lose, that has to be good enough.  That seems easy to say today because we won.  Hopefully, I can grow enough that I have this mindset and attitude even when I lose.