One Year Ago Today

One year ago today, my Granddad passed away.   I think about him almost everyday, but especially today I wonder..........

• What is he doing right now?   
• Is he spending time hiking the most gorgeous mountains imaginable? 
• Is he at a huge table celebrating and spending time with family and old friends and new? 
• What does Grandpa look like now?  Does he look young?
• What does his mansion look like?
• What role does he play in heaven?  Is he a gardener, a teacher, a warrior?
•  Does he play the harmonica in heaven? 
• Has he met all the old saints like Paul, David, John, Mary, Moses?
• Is he still emotional like he was in his old age?
• Does he run just for the fun of it like he used to on Saturday mornings?

I could go on and on, but I obviously don't know the answers to those questions and never will in this lifetime.  And yes, I am sad today, but I am also happy and relieved.  I know my Granddad suffered pain, both physically and emotionally, at the end of his lifetime.  And I saw him struggle for two days before taking his last breath and slipping into eternity.  But today I know that he is happy, and peaceful, and better and more complete than he ever was.

But I still miss him.  I miss his encouraging words. I miss the stories he would tell over and over. I miss the way he called me "Jeffer" and I miss hearing his voice. 

But most of all, I miss his unconditional love.