Thursday, June 2, 2011

I Wanna Go Home

I have made a decision that I need to make a change.  I have decided three plus years is enough.  I need to change my workplace and work schedule.  And I need to make the change because I am afraid to continue to tempt fate.  I am afraid to let things crash.  I am afraid to continue to let my wife and boys fill in the gap while I am 230 miles away.

While I was driving to Kentucky at 4:30 a.m. this week, I turned on the radio and heard a man talking about marriage.  He made the point that marriages have "seasons", some "seasons" are good, some are bad.  And things can go from good to bad very quickly, even when couples are in love, when one of the spouses feels like he/she is giving and giving and giving with no response or help from their mate.  And the message hit me between the eyes. 

My marriage is great.  We are in a good "season".  I love spending time with my wife and planning for a future together with her.  But the reality is that my wife has been giving and giving for three plus years.  I work in Kentucky and during the week I build fires, and grill out, and exercise, and read, and write.  My wife holds down the fort while I am gone.  She works full-time, gets the groceries, pays the bills, takes care of the dogs, makes the meals, does the laundry, cleans the house, takes care of the cars, fixes the meals for her and the boys, attends track meets and concerts, exercises, and drops into bed exhausted most nights.  You would have to be fairly dense to understand that my marriage is lop-sided.  Obviously, she makes things happen.  And I am blessed.

But, I am not going to tempt fate.  I am not going to wait until things fall apart.  I am not going to wait until my wife runs to the arms of another man to help her deal with everything she does.  It is time to go home.  It is time to come along side of her and to even out the marriage responsibilities.  It is time to help with the chores throughout the week and fall asleep next to her on a Tuesday night, and a Wednesday night, and a Thursday night.

Thank you baby for all that you have done.  Thank you for being strong.  Thank you for making things work.  I owe you more than I can repay.  And I am willing, ready, and able to help you side-by-side.

Hey, does anyone know of a Director, National Accounts, General Manager, or Sales position in Tennessee?



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